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I might just have had a haha moment.
I have been thinking for a few weeks now, how I am single for the first time in 8 years and that I will need to start dating again.
Well this is daunting…
But tonight it hit me that dating has a lot of similarities with some very particular aspects of job hunting on which I am an expert:
- Networking– I made a quick mental check in my head and it turns out I will most probably need to meet new people to have a chance to find a date-able candidate. Luckily through professional networking I am very at ease at starting small talks with strangers.
- Stating my interest– I could have said ‘send your application’ which is the medium you use while job hunting. In this case, if the other one doesn’t make the first move, I am totally ready to do so by sending him an email/sms.
- Asking for a meeting– Or a drink on a terrasse of a lovely café with sunset.
- Put most fitted clothes– Clothes that would make the best first impression so that I’d be wanted…. hard….
- Attend meeting– go on a date – and not say stupid things when asked stuff.
- Accept rejection– I am actually thinking of putting this one up in the list. I think it is a very good acquired skill to realize that if the other isn’t interested in you, you aren’t the problem and shouldn’t take it personally even when you have said stupid stuff that made you looked ridiculous. And also always remember that it is their losses not mine…
I am so witty, I should probably add this to my DArING RESUME!
Time is a created thing.
To say, “I don’t have time”, is like saying,
“I don’t want to.”
A very short list of some of the things in my life IN ORDER OF IMPORTANCE:
- So many people put so much importance into their job.
Or worse: their job title!
But without love, this is nothing.
- Love brings happiness. If not, this is not Love, I think.
I am not saying that when you have love in your life, you see the whole world pink all the time. But its foundation should be based on positive, beautiful feeling.
- And/but happiness can be felt without love.
It just needed to be said!
You know… maybe it doesn’t count for much to you but he is the only man I woke next to with always a smile on my face.
So there is this guy. Or I should say this amazing man.
When I first met him, it was very casual. So when I realized I had feeling for him, it swept me out of my feet. I guess I will tell more about our love story in another post.
This posts is about grief. Of what has been. Of what isn’t anymore. Every moment I spent with this guy were so precious. I haven’t got regrets if you are wondering. Because I lived every minute of it fully, without holding back. I totally lived in the present, with no expectation for the future. It was like being in the flow. I kept wondering how on earth could we both get so lucky that we had found each other. At this moment. In this place.
And now I grieve because what was given to me as an unexpected gift just got taken away. One day he was telling he loved me. And the next he shot me off. And never opened up again. Until it hurt so much. To cry in my bed every night because of him. Because I needed him and he couldn’t/wasn’t here for me.
I was the one ending it. I even asked him not to contact me again. No contact. Full STOP.
But I still love him. I still miss him. I still hurt.
To this man: